But I am feeling pretty smug that I did ha! But I really didn’t mean to at all!
You see two days ago I had a small surgery and was meant to be ‘taking it easy.’ So I told myself I was only going to do a small run down into town and back (I run most Saturday mornings to help with my lymphoedema and Ehlers Danlos Syndrome). I haven’t felt that well the past few days, even went to bed at 8pm last night totally drained and in pain.
But something happened this morning before my run which I won’t bore you with, but let’s just say it released too much adrenaline into my system (a quirky benefit/punishment of having EDS) and once I was running with my favourite tunes on in the pissing rain and wind, I just couldn’t stop. I love how ‘free’ running and music makes me feel, everything else just kinda fades away. It’s a very therapeutic feeling; one I only ever feel when I am running, dancing or singing. Its irreplaceable.
You will know from my previous blogs how hard I have found my fitness journey due to my health issues – if you haven’t read them you can find them here and here. Never in a million years would I have ever thought I was capable of doing what I did today! So I guess there is a lot to be said for running when you are feeling emotional 😉
I am sooooooo incredibly proud of myself, and not in a bigheaded way but in a fucking grateful way. Grateful that I am still here after cancer, grateful that my EDS and lymphoedema haven’t ruined my life, grateful to be a strong role model to my babies, grateful for good music! But fuck am I in agony now. My legs are wrecked and my stomach can’t make it’s mind up what it’s doing.
I am expecting to go into a full blown painful chronic illness flare up over the next few days, but you know what since cancer I have learnt to live life like it’s your last day on earth. And I don’t mean that in a morbid way. But I was genuinely given a second chance at life and I have absolutely no intention spending it festering away!
As John Cena says…….NEVER GIVE UP!!!
Amy Griffiths, Well Being Freedom Services Ltd ©