Does your brain ever feel so busy that you are sure it’s about to explode? Usually a good dance to loud music or exercise (on my good health days) really helps to clear the noise and get clarity on my thoughts. Music is a wonderful tool for the brain, I live for music! I wrote a previous blog about it’s therapeutic qualities which you can read here. But lately neither exercise or music have worked.
It’s been a very difficult few months; health flare ups, massive issues with my youngest baby’s education (or lack of, but that’s whole other rant!); studying; exams; life. I’ve been running on an empty-autopilot state for the past few months, under huge demands, not really processing much, just fire-fighting situations and trying to get through my exams.
If you follow me on social media, then you will know that despite everything going on (and being a single mummy to two wonderful quirky kids!) that my hard work paid off – I am now a fully qualified Fitness Instructor, YAY! This means I can better meet the needs of my clients, rather than simply focussing on good nutrition. But I will write more about that another time, sooooo exciting!
Anyway, back to my busy brain……side tracked again! So when music and exercise fail to clear my mind sufficiently, I jump in the car and head to one of my special places to reflect and sort the crap. I have four main special places which help me to reflect:
- Cardiff Bay – this is not so much the ‘place’ but who I feel close to when I am there; miss you always xxx.
- Caerphilly Mountain – this is a few minutes from where I live so I head there quite often if I need a quick ‘fix’ and can’t get to Cardiff Bay.
- My Aunty’s grave in Gloucestershire – although since moving away I haven’t had much opportunity to visit. I need to make more time, I’m sorry.
- Torquay – before the babies came along, any sign of trouble or overwhelm and I was straight in that car! Sometimes I didn’t even pre-book accomodation, just knocked on hotel doors until I found space. These days I have to be less spontaneous due to said babies. But we still enjoy heading to the ‘English Riviera’ once a year, although not much peace these days to reflect!
So, today I was meant to be going for a swim during my two hours of childfree time as it helps my Lymphoedema and EDS. But instead I got the pull to grab the dog (we are looking after the most gorgeous doggie this week for a friend!) and head to Cardiff Bay. I’ve hardly slept in weeks, so this busy head needed to empty!
It may sound odd, but when I reflect I am able to visualise a spreadsheet where I can sort all my tasks, thoughts, feelings etc into tables and columns to give me more clarity on situations. It doesn’t necessarily always stop my brain being as busy, but stops a lot of the rushing around and muddling that can happen when i’ve been running on autopilot too long.
I envy those who successfully manage to meditate each day. I just don’t have the alone time or patience for it, so for me I have to ‘reflect’ on the go which probably isn’t the most productive way to sort a busy brain, but hey life and shit happens. So a calming walk around the Bay was the ‘meditation’ I really needed – I won’t dwell on the part where I had to pick up the biggest dog shit from right outside Starbucks – thanks Douglas for your audience witnessed crap!
Welcome to my random life 😉
Amy Griffiths, Well Being Freedom Services Ltd ©